Day 110

OK, so here it is.. the nitty gritty about the day after P90X. First, let me just get this out there... Michael hasn't had to wheel me around in a wheelbarrow today. Yay! But, I am sore. I've had worse in the past. Back in, gosh maybe 2007-8, when I just started in on that weight loss journey, I did The Biggest Loser workout video and the next day I felt like I would die. Of course, at that point I hadn't been getting some sort of exercise everyday. So, I guess that is why I'm doing better this time. Still, I'm sore. Especially my left thigh. Why is it just the left and not the right as well? Strange. Michael said his calves were sore, but mine are fine. It's that left thigh that is getting to me. It's mainly been this afternoon when the soreness set in. This morning I expected to get up feeling like I rode a horse all day yesterday, but I was fine. As the day went on, it got worse. When I went out to feed my chickens, I could barely get back up the steps. So, I didn't push myself too hard on the treadmill. I did get on there though. That is something, right? I had to attempt it, even if I didn't want to, 'cause I promised myself I would. I made it a mile before I called it quits. Not too shabby, I don't suppose.

Surprisingly, my arms aren't sore today after the strength training video. I really expected not to be able to move them. Much like when I worked out at the rec center with Michael. That day I could barely straighten my arm out to brush my hair. But nope, they are fine. Maybe I have more strength in there than I thought I did or is it that I should have done the video 2x? Either way I did it again tonight. Woo! I'm on a roll.

The scales were nice again this morning. I was down nearly a pound. I felt like jumping up and down. This not eating crap and moving around actually works. Who'da thunk it? LOL.

My day today was about like all the rest. But I had a lot of running around to do this evening. Bailey had speech therapy, we had to return books to the library and check out more (we read a lot), throw in stopping at the cell service provider and Walmart.

I was tired and cranky and so were the kids. I've had a headache today, which I think it is because I am ovulating. I always get headaches the day before I ovulate as well as the day before AF shows up. Generally, I have a weight gain with both as well.

Anyway... we were out most of the evening, but we didn't stop for fast food. That is two outings straight that I haven't even allowed the boys to get quick calorie filled junk. I came home and cooked. I always hate not being home of the evenings because I feel rushed and like I didn't accomplish everything I needed to do around here. It totally throws me off track. Like I said yesterday, I thrive on routine.

My food today wasn't ideal and I ate more than I should have which cut into my exercise calories. As a result, I probably won't see a drop tomorrow, but I will remain hopeful. Even though I did eat back some of my calories burned, I didn't go over, so that's good. I had zero junk food. Not even Nutella. I'm pretty proud of that. I think what threw me off was that I had a big handful of almonds. I didn't even think about the amount of calories in them, because they are healthy, right? Yikes. 170 calories per serving. I'm sure I had two servings. I didn't exactly count them out.

Oh, while the boys and I were in Walmart we ran into an old friend of my Moms. She stops me and says "You've lost weight." I just found that comical. It was just the way she said it. Like she was surprised and that somehow I didn't know I had lost. I just woke up this morning and it had magically disappeared. It was refreshing to know that someone I haven't seen in a long time can actually tell though. She didn't say I looked good but at least she noticed, right?

I've had a few people on Facebook to ask if I'd share a photo of my weight loss. I just can't bring myself to share this blog with them, photos, or even my fitness pal page. I'm just embarrassed of what I had let myself turn into and I want them to see me now and think I look good and that I am healthy. Not to see the before photo of me and say "Gosh, she really was a cow." Does that make sense? So, since I can't show them the before pics.. I did show them a recent photo of myself and say I was down 40 lbs. This was on April 7th. Since then I've had several replies and I thought I may share a couple with you.

Shirley Noe Swiesz is a local author who has written two books; Mountain Strangerand Coal Dust; and co-written four others. We became acquaintances after my sister read one of her books. She replied to the photo, "I am so happy you lost the weight...but you know what...you have the most wonderful smile...it is the thing that people notice about you first, I think...that and your kind and gentle heart...blessings to you and your hard work..."

And Missy, not my sister... a home school friend, said, "Love your determination, it's very contagious!! You inspired me to begin my walking routine again!! Thank you so much!! Great job!!!!!"  

Both of those were very touching. But, today I ran across a vlog that included a little something about myself that brought me to tears.  Wendy, from Eat.Sleep.Move, made this video in March but I somehow missed it until now. 

*I* inspired Wendy to make a change in her life. I cried. Like bawled like a baby. That is truly an amazing feeling. Wendy seems so sweet and I just love her attitude. I am so thankful that I was able to inspire her! She is doing fantastic and should be very proud of herself. Keep up the good work, Wendy! Oh, and I am here ANYTIME you need to someone to talk to about weight loss or even day to day stuff. Thanks for your kind words and for linking to my blog. Best of luck to you! I hope we become great friends.

I guess that's about it. Nite all.